Julia

And in that moment she heard a whisper in her ear, "It's okay child. I am here. You fought your fight but have grown too tired. You have done all I've asked of you." The sun peeked over the horizon as He lifted her in the palm of His hand and held her close to his heart. "Sleep now child, don't be afraid."

She sighed and the candle flickered. It's light and her life, extinguished.


The world is a little bit darker without her. Through this we will find each other and hang on tight because at the end of the day, it is all that you have.


I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.

Make

Don't try to hide

The mistakes I made this time
But please try and listen
Cuz I'm breaking my heart tonight
So you can see what's inside
Cuz wherever you go, well that's where I'll go
I'd do so much I'll show but you won't know
So here's a song to show for the things I've blown
But I'm sorry so... that's the only way that I know

What we hate we make, what we hate we make
There's no time for hating but what we hate we make

Something is about to change
I can feel it in my heart today
And you know it's not the first time
But I bet it won't be the same
Cuz right now I'm at an all time low
So here's a song just so you won't go
Cuz that the only thing that I know

you

Don't worry, I don't miss you.

I miss the smell of your skin, the taste of your lips, the shape of your arms, the pattern of your stomach.
I miss the gentleness of your hands and the roughness of your face.
I miss the rhythm of your breath, the beat of your heart, and the simple little twitch.
I miss the twinkle in your eye as you flash a crooked smile.
I miss the thickness of your hair and that chain on your neck.
I miss the smoothness of your voice and the sound of your laugh.
I miss the rhythm of your walk and your hand on the small of my back.
I miss the way your arms wrapped around me and the way I fit just perfectly with my head on your shoulder.

..... but don't worry, I don't miss you.

Cupid

A genuine smile accompanied by something that hasn't been felt in a while... happy.

"I know you don't like this holiday..." well that's an understatement but to awake this morning to a surprise on my table immediately changed my thoughts of dread about this day.

The intention was never there but now that it's happening, I'm going to embrace it. This is a good thing, a very good thing. :)



Wine, chocolate, and scary movies tonight with my loves. I can't think of a better way to spend my day.

Glass

I Wrote This for You

This is the song I only sing when you're sleeping. These are the words I say when you can't hear me. This is the way I look when you can't see me. And you will never know. 

I can't stand how much I love this one :)

Busy

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger

People

I thank you.....

For the willingness to run down a cold flight of stairs, wrapped in a blanket because you heard me. For sitting with me and knowing what was going on, even though I couldn't bring myself to say the words.  
You reminded me I'm not alone.

For the beautiful smile you give and for the ear you lend when I can no longer keep it to myself. For the words of mine you keep a secret even though you are not obligated.
You reminded me to trust in others.

For the "r u okay?" text when you saw the look on my face that everyone looked passed. For the hug that night that never ended even though you knew there were eyes questioning why you laid there.
You reminded me I could fall asleep without tears.

For the questions, the conversation, the silence, and the tissues. For knowing exactly what I need to make it through the day.
You reminded me I'll be alright.

For being there through thick and thin. For being on my side (even if it has to be a secret) and standing up for me.
You reminded me people care.

For pointing out all of the good in me. For helping me back to my feet. For helping me find my laugh and the "twinkle in my eye."
You reminded me to believe in myself.


For the way you treat me and the way you make me smile. For sharing your stories and listening to mine. For the rules we'll break and the steps we'll take together.
You reminded me people are good and there is still love to be found.


For the everything in the past and everything in the future, I thank you.