Regret

I'm not really big on regret but I regret this. The choice to allow someone poisonous into my life was a terrible decision. Who was I kidding?  I was not ready for the snap back to reality this brought.

As I ran out of the house I couldn't fight off the dejavu. I've been here before. A frightened, broken, little girl running from the monster in his eyes.

He has always been a lost cause, slipping deeper and deeper into the monster like state. My best friend asked me why the other day. It was the first time someone ever asked me why. "Why did you stay with him?" It is hard to understand and even harder to explain. I wasn't staying with the monster. I stayed with the boy the monster was taking over. For you see, they were two very different people in a power struggle. Today, it looks like the monster has finally won. The boy didn't put up enough of a fight because if he did... he could have been the winner.



Although my faith in people has been shattered. I will go on living my life. I will continue to change myself for the better. My hope is that I restore someone else's shattered faith.


 I will never look back to this momentary lapse of judgement.