Finished

 One more challenge.....



Well, that is that. No more questions, no more knots in my stomach (kind of), no more worrying about everything. This will be a relief....someday.


This is what I wanted.... isn't it?


I've learned a lot. Things about myself, about trust, about lies and deception, about choosing battles. But mostly I learned about people. Some people no matter what is going on still try and to the right thing. While others... well lets just they are lost and couldn't do the right thing if it jumped up and bit them in the ass. They in a way are selfish, not taking into consideration they way anyone else feels, but even more so they are pretenders.
At least now there is no more pretending to be something you are not.


Ultimately, I am still deeply hurt by all of this and there is nothing I can do about it.



One saving grace, I have someone to turn to, someone who knows how I am feeling. He gets it. And I have to say, it is nice getting to know someone new after all of this. It reminds me that there really are good, honest, trustworthy people in the world, even after they've been damaged.