Enough

I've really had enough of this rut.




Why can't I snap out of it?



It's getting even more frustrating as people make comments like "you're really off today" or "wow, you're not on the ball" or my personal favorite "i haven't seen you smile in a while"



WOAH PEOPLE. I'm sorry I'm not smiling. you know even the most seemingly happy people get sick of putting on a front. even the most responsible, reliable individuals trip up a little. nd yes I'm really off today... do you think your comment is making that any better?



what is wrong with people these days?
... maybe it's not them.
is it really just me?


I wanna call out for help. Just scream at the top of my lungs FIX ME!!!!
but why should I expect people to fix my problems?
this is the one thing I said I wanted to do for myself


for such a long time I had relied on someone else to make everything better. When that was gone I became determined to take care of myself. I've been through some hard times since then and I've made it through them. But i haven't been through anything like this. i don't want anyone to become my crutch. I don't want to "need" someone again. I'll just have to bite my tongue hopefully they won't see right through me.


can I really do it on my own? or am I just damning myself?