unconventional

Why hello draft... i could have sworn I hit  Publish Post . dang A.D.D. had me all distracted again.

"well, she's a kinda sorta, not really, but eventually its bound to happen... maybe, thing"
yepp, that's how I was described to my best friends family. GRRREAT. I've spent a few holidays with this family, they are awesome. But they never really asked questions about our relationship... it was always just eh, its us. Good way to describe it to people who aren't around you on a regular basis. From the outside it looks pretty darn convincing that we are together but if you are on the inside you would know that it is 109934671940580976 million times more complicated than that. We choose to ignore the "inevitable" so that we can live our lives fully. We choose to stay close to one another because it is just too hard to keep each other out. One way or the other we are going to be a part of each others lives. We choose when we censor ourselves to make other people feel comfortable and we choose when it is just to hard to keep on pretending. We have an understanding and we choose to openly discuss this whenever we feel it is necessary. I personally think (minus all of the messed up and really odd parts) it is pretty darn healthy to have a relationship like that, no matter what it's outcome.

"If you dont come back. I'll come and get you" - vini

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. What do you want?"





... to another day down