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"I'll plant this seed of anger and sadness. In it's place a tree will grow and I'll climb it to escape this eternally damned place."

I've had a bad string of days. Just waiting for the next bad thing to happen. This is exactly like last summer. There is no light visible at the end of the tunnel. I'm struggling to keep up this facade. I've never felt so alone. People care, I know they do, but I don't have the energy to tell them what's wrong. I have this hole in my chest that won't go away. I have happy moments where I'm laughing and for that one split second everything feels okay. Then I come back to reality. I'm constantly in a "dejavu" life. Reflecting back on "the dark times" or reflecting back when things were once happy. Last summer when I was going through these "dark times" I had someone there. Granted I relied on him too much, pushing him away in the end, I still had someone there. Although this is scary, I know that in the end everything will be okay. I will be stronger as a result of this because for the first time in my life, I'm getting through it alone. Sadly however, this is the only optimistic view I have on the current situation but its better than nothing.









...to another day down